Dear Ruth,
I wanted to email this to you HOURS ago. :-) Last night I was laying in bed silently talking to God. I was really laying it on, all my discouragement, all the questions, all the junk, everything, and asking to be able to move forward now and be all I want to be and have a fulfilling life in all areas.
I was turning it all over and almost pleading for Gods favor. I finally asked God to blessme in those areas. Ruth, directly after I silently spoke it to God, my whole bedroom lit up as if someone flashed a picture. I sat up in bed trying to figure it out. I asked (my husband) if it was lightning. He saw nothing. It wasn't, and the flash came from inside my room, not the outside in. I don't know, but I think that was my sign that I was heard! Just had to share that with you!
Yes, this is the place to share what scares you or is very weird! At times I may share with you what I think is happening, but usually I pass it on to those who teach through me. That is the case now.
There is nothing going on in the house, but you had a moment of divine inspiration. You felt rather than saw the light of God, as you will call it, and felt the heat that comes when you give up thinking that you have all the answers and all the plans in your mind now. You will find that if you can give up all of this thought and meditate without thought or visions or any distractions that you will easily find the answers to all your questions. You need more time to be alone with God and it is not always possible? You are always with God. You cannot possibly not be alone most of the time. No one is with someone else constantly, but at times you can actually give up living to be as you believe someone else expects you to be.
What we see is pressure to be someone who is great in your mind, but not really who you want to be. Try to relax and thank God as you did in that state of mind and all things will be explained over time.
Ruth Lee, Scribe
This is a timely letter, it seems everyone is questoning their current path and it is contagious. Clients, family members, friends.....I have been asked several times how I made it through the last 10 years after losing everything, and I say I had a lot of help from clients, family and friends. We cannot do it alone. I love the part about "living up to be as you believe someone else expects you to be, but not who you want to be"....that hits close to the bone for a lot of human beings. Thanks for sharing!!!! Be Well! Lots of Love, AJ