Here is an amazing account of someone receiving a spiritual gift, which she does not feel she deserves or can fully accept and use today because she is human, humble, down-to-earth, and not wishing to wear a crown…Well, Helen, that is when it happens! You can’t ask for such gifts! I so appreciate what Helen writes here because much of it corresponds to what went through my mind when I was called to write for others by The Holy Spirit in 1992. Some things never change… I think all here are able to understand this now, but if not, make an entry in your journal and ask for help.
Hi again :-)
Now I’m sitting here with my chin somewhere around my knees. Surprised?? Me??? Ooooh, yes! I’m trying to figure out if this is really happening to me... I know it’s happening, but it’s soooo big to me. I think I need some time, to really understand that this is really true. That this really is happening... to me... an ordinary women, who is as everybody else....
A couple of minutes ago God gave me a lesson... but I didn’t know how to do it, so he told me to sit down, relax, write on paper with a pen, not looking at the writing, just writing what he said. I didn’t know how to begin; he told me to just begin writing something. Then he told me that I have to practice and learn how this is working...Asking if I could feel how, I just wrote down what he told me, without looking. Then he said: "You can do this! You have done it before in a past life. You only have to start again. It will be fine and you will learn quickly. Channeling many messages from me. Just write correct Swedish and English." I suddenly felt I had to go to the bathroom and was going to leave... but God said "Pinch yourself, relax, it will be fine. Trust me, increase your faith, be happy, be you, live more, listen to me and learn about the end for this time, read after the bathroom."
To me, this is just too big! ... I can’t believe this is happening to me... I’m totally confused...shocked... Why me?...not that I have anything against it, on the contrary. It’s just that... I don’t know.. maybe it’s just that it’s soooo big to me that I need a little time to get this into my mind. That it’s really true and not my mind playing tricks on me...or whatever.... It’s not that I’m questioning this, it’s just that it’s soooo big to me... God......The Holy Spirit...speaking to me... It’s incredible... but I know it’s true and my mind has to have a little time to get it... now I’m told that my mind has to accept this immediately, because "I want you to channel my messages now as soon as possible." This is too big to me. I feel as if being spoken to all the time now and I accept it, but also want to say "Hey, slow down I need a little time." But then I hear "You have no more time. You shall work now spreading my messages. You can do that… Just accept You have done it before." No, that’s it! I’m not taking any more messages at this time. I have to get this into my mind and bubble.... or no.... I won’t bubble this time. I know I will get messages then and I know I have to take a break a little while now..
I took a little break, just trying to sort things out. Do something different to occupy my mind. At the moment, I hear a lot of messages forcing themselves into my mind -- making a total chaos, but I know it’s because I have to learn how to handle this in some way. Sort out immediately what I shall listen to...It sounds like a crowd and everybody wants to speak at the same time; and for just a tiny little minute a was a little afraid, because suddenly I was thinking "this is too big to me. I’m not able to handle this;" but then I told my mind: "I have my faith in God and I know it will be fine. God is always protecting me, and if he says that it will be fine, then it will be." Immediately, I felt how everything was slowing down and I began to be calmer again. No, more fear, nothing like that, just accepting, but still in shock. Now I’m feeling a bit tired and I still don’t know how to handle this or if it’s happening... No, that’s not true. I know it’s happening, but it is still sooooo big and I think that’s what makes it a little hard to understand that it’s really happening.... I know I have to learn how to handle this and it will be fine, but in the moment I’m in shock and have to sort things out, and I have no idea how or what to do. Can it really be like this? I have a hard time getting it into my mind, even if I know it’s really happening.
As you see, I’m in big chaos at the moment, but I know I will understand this, too. It’s just that I don’t know how this kind of "thing" works and how to handle everything. Suddenly everything went bigger than I ever had thought possible...
Love you, Helen
When I read your post, I immediately thought of Marianne Williamson's teaching:
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”
God needs you. go for it!!! God is asking you to stretch, so who knows better?
Blessings,
RoseAnn